SEAFOOD= Sea + Food

Your future is at stake.

You will see that your lucky star has not forgotten you :
"... You are capable of total concentration and tremendous discipline, and you are very difficult to influence once your mind is made up. When you want something, you can be very one-sided and almost obsessed with it. You tend to be secretive and you do not want others to know what your plans are. You tend to be instinctive, perceptive, determined, strong-willed, stubborn and magnetic. You have deep emotions and may occasionally show a primitive side. You need to learn self-discipline or your desire nature will rule your life, probably causing great sorrow in the end. You must learn to control your jealousy and possessiveness in matters of love.
A certain amount of detachment in relationships would probably be good and this, of course, would include your tendency to treat loved ones as possessions. You are very forceful in a quiet and subtle way and others may have difficulty in seeing or understanding your motives. You can manipulate people in a way that is not obvious to them or others.
Direct confrontation with others is not your preferred style. You like operating behind the scenes.
In any case, you are a formidable opponent when riled.

You are enthusiastic, assertive, energetic, and filled with many ideas on how to grow, start, promote, or expand the ideas which fill your head. You are opinionated and can be very persuasive in getting people to go along with your plans and ideas. You like dealing with the big picture and have leadership qualities.
A need to learn patience and to think before you act is probable. Your tendency to promise more than you can deliver should be watched. Tolerance of others people's ideas and viewpoints should also be developed.
You have the ability to sell things, ideas, material goods, philosophies. Over-optimism, conceit, self-centeredness, false pride, and fanaticism over some cause may be your biggest shortfalls with this position.

You are very persistent in carrying out your goals. You can be overly concerned with material possessions and in wanting to squirrel away too much for that proverbial rainy day. You tend to place too much emphasis on material goods and possessions for security and if carried too far, you can become miserly and miserable due to worrying about what might happen tomorrow and will you have enough money to cover things.
You need to re-evaluate your values and where true security comes from. On the positive side, you are a tireless worker and have patience, caution, determination, discipline, organizing ability and can go the distance when those around you fall. Hard work is your forte. Your feelings are serious, well-controlled and not easily changed, although at times it may be hard for you to forgive and forget. Loyalty is important to you.
Building structures that last is a need you have...."

Let me start from here...

自从年前长沙回来，就开始被各种焦虑所困扰。。。飞机恐怖症，汽车恐怖症。。。某女歌手死于乳房癌的噩耗又让我疑神疑鬼以为自己也步了其后成。晚上失眠，心悸，紧张到四肢麻木，莫名胃肠疼，后背疼，肩疼，肋骨疼。焦虑到以为自己疯了！这3个月真是煎熬。现在终于一切都回到正常的轨道。呼~~~呼~~~呼~~~终于可以放轻松自己，这感觉不错。

原来压力并不是只有在你忙碌的时候才会发生，有时太清闲了，脑子一直处于休息状态时，为了让她一直运转，她会考虑很多工作忙碌的时候没空想的问题。。。工作太闲，自己的能力没有尽情发挥，是一种浪费。自己在浪费自己的青春；自己的朋友们都有了上幼儿园的孩子，自己却仍然独自一人； 等等等等。自己给自己的压力比外界的压力更可怕，更致命。

为了缓解自己轻度的焦虑症，买了很多心理健康方面的书，确实很有用。运动也很重要。少生气，多吃蔬菜。听古典音乐。保持积极向上的心态。在五月天里，我不再需要呼叫May Day,May Day了。。。。

Fighting~~~~~~~